JUS WANTED TO VENT A BIT: IN A POSITIVE WAY

JUS WANTED TO VENT A BIT: BUT IN A POSITIVE WAY



THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE ARE THE PEOPLE GOD HAS PLACED IN MY LIFE THAT HAVE BEEN NOTHING SHORT OF A BLESSING TO ME: MY FAMILY


INDIA: MY BLOOD SISTER... MY BEST FRIEND.. THE BEATS TO MY HEART... I LOVE MY SISTER MORE THAN ANYTHING AND ANYBODY... EXCEPT GOD OF COURSE ... SHE IS MY BACKBONE... THE ONLY PERSON I KNOW HAS MY BACK 115% ... IF ANYTHING EVER HAPPENED TO HER I WOULD PROLLY BE PUT INTO AN CRAZY HOUSE... LITERALLY... SHE MY NUMBER ONE.. AND PROLLY THE ONLY PERSON WHOSE NAME I'D EVER GET TATTED ON MY BODY LOL... I LOVE YOU JOY RD..!

MY PARENTS: MOM.DUKES... WE ARE COMPLETER OPPOSITES LOL... BUT I LOVE HER TO DEATH... I KINDA WISH SHE WAS BACK HERE IN MICHIGAN... BUT I KNO HOW LONG SHE'S BEEN WAITING TO GET TO AZ! I HOPE SHE MEETS A MAN THAT WILL TREAT HER LIKE THE QUEEN SHE IS... I LOVE HER SO MUCH!

DADDY--->> MY TWIN.. WE THINK ALIKE.. ACT ALIKE... EAT ALIKE.. LOL..EVERYTHING... I LOVE MY POPS... SOMETIMES I THINK HE'S BI-POLAR BUT IF HE IS... THEN I AM TOO ... BECUZ I LITERALLY ACT JUS LIKE HIM! I LOVE MY DADDY SOOOO MUCH AND I HOPE HE FINDS A WIFE AND TREATS HER RIGHT...


MY BROTHERS: TRE & MEECH...WE ARENT AS CLOSE AS WE USED TO BE ... BUT I LOVE MY BIG BROS... MEECH -->> I CANT BELIEVE HE GOT MARRIED AND HAS TWO BEAUTIFUL KIDS! TRE--->>> I WISH HE WOULD POP OUT SOMEKIDS LOL ASAP! I WANT SOME MORE NEICES AND NEPHEWS!

LAUREN & KEITH... MY TWO FAV. COUSINS... WE BEEN TOGETHER SINCE BIRTH LITERALLY ...LOL... WE PROLLY THE ONLY CUZINS WHO HAVENT FIST FOUGHT EACH OTHER! (THEY DONT WANT NONE LOL)... BUT LO... THIS IS MY HOMIE!!! SHE LIKE A LIL SIS TOO ME TOO ... SHE IS MY RIDE OR DIE JUS LIKE INDIA... THEY BOTH BE THE FIRST TO JUMP DOWN SOMEBODY THROATS WHEN THEY GET OUTTA LINE LOL... KEITH MY NIGGA! MY LIL BIG CUZIN... WE PROLLY THE CLOSEST ... I LOVE THIS DUDE TO DEATH... HE GOT ONE OF THEE SMARTEST MOUTHS IN THE WORLD LOL... JUS DONT KNOW WHEN TO SHUT UP LOL ... BUT I THINK THATS SOMETHING THAT JUS RUN IN OUR BLOOD LOL... ALL OF US WILL CUSS YOU OUT AND NOT THINK TWICE ABOUT IT...

SPEAKING OF THAT: MY AUNTIE(S)

LINDA..CHERYL. TENNILLE..TINA
I LOVE MY AUNTIES! THEY ARE THEE BEST! AND WHEN I SAY THE BEST I MEAN THEE BEST! NOT A WHOOPIN FROM ON OF THEM EVER LOL... EVER!! (EXCEPT LINDA) SHE HITS EVERYBODY LOL... ALL MY AUNTIES HAVE ALWAYS HAD MY BACK... AND WOULD PROLLY BE THEE FIRST TO THROW THE PUNCH IF THEY EVER WITNESSED ME ABOUT TO GET INTO A FIGHT LOL... THEY ARE CRAZY BUT I LOVE THEM 7 WOULDNT WANT THEM ANY OTHER WAY!!!

ADONA. ALONA.AUGUST.&LLOYD

MY OTHER (4) CUZINS ON MOMS SIDE ... MAN... I LOVE THESE NIGGAS TO DEATH!!! I'VE GOTTEN INTO THOUSANDS.. AND I DO MEAN THOUSANDS OF ARGUEMENTS WIT BOTH LONNIE & DONNA... BUT REGARDLESS OF HOW MANY ARGUEMENTS WE'VE HAD--> WE HAVE NEVER BROKE INTO A SCRAP... NEVER LOL... BUT I THINK WE ALL KNO I WOULDVE PUT MY FOOT STR8 UP THEY BEHINDS LOL... J/K... (NAW BUT FAREAL)...

AUGUST&LLOYD.. MY LIL BIG CUZINS... BOTH THESE GIANTS ARE PROLLY THE TWO FUNNIEST PEOPLE IVE EVER MET... THEY ARE HILARIOUS... I LOVE THEM TWO DEATH... LOL...

MY OTHER CUZINS: CRYSTAL.MARKIE.RALPH.LIL ROBERT. KE.KE.CIDNE.. WE ALL KNOW WE'RE NOT AS CLOSE AS WE SHOULD BE (NO BEEF OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT) JUS THE DISTANCE... I LOVE THEM SO MUCH... AND I AM SO HAPPY WE'RE ALL GETTING CLOSER AS THE YEARS GO ON!!!

MY UNCLES (SNOOP.ROB) & (NEW AUNTIES & UNCLES)-->>TASHA. QUINTON. J5
MAN THESE TWO ^^^ ARE ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS... THEY ARE THE REASON MY WARD FAM. LOOK FORWARD TO THE HOLIDAYS... FROM THE PRANKS TO THE VERBAL ABUSE... ITS ALL HILARIOUS ! I LOVE YOU GUYS! ... MY AUNTIE TASHA...UNCLE Q..& J5 .. WE ALL JUS RECENTLY BEEN REUNITED (THANKS TO ME) AND I AM SOOOOOOO HAPPY!!! I LOVE THEM AND I AM SO HAPPY THEY ARE FINALLY IN MY LIFE! ITS A WARD THANG!


MY GRANDMOTHERS: JOYCE & LILLIAN

I LOVE THEM MORE THAN ANY WORDS CAN EXPRESS ! THEY ARE AMAZING... AND BOTH ARE CRAZY... BUT IN A GOOD WAY LOL... THEY ALWAYS HAVE MY BACK! GRANDMA JOYCE HAS SPOILED ME SINCE DAY ONE LITERALLY... WHATEVER I WANTED SHE GOT... (AND THAT GOES FOR ALL HER GRANDKIDS) LILLIAN HAS SO MANY GRANDKIDS IT CRAZY ! LOL... BUT SHE KEPT A GIFT IN THE MAIL EVERY SINGLE BIRTHDAY & EVERY SINGLE CHRISTMAS! I LOVE THESE TWO SOOOO MUCH... AND IM SO THANKFUL TO GOD FOR GIVING ME THE OPPURTUNITY TO HAVE BOTH GRANDMOTHERS & A GREAT GRANDMA IN MY LIFE! ... BIG MAMA--->> SHE IS FUNNY TOO... EVEN THOUGH I DON'T THINK SHE KNOWS IT LOL....I LOVE YOU B.MAMA!

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i wish i could talk to someone... anyone about the way i feel about you. its beyond difficult to lock these thoughts and feeling in my mind & [???my heart???] its been months and i haven't told a soul... how would they react??? shit how would you react? Man i really wonder how you'd react... [LOL] do i really want to know? Could i handle the rejection? How would i react to your facial expression? [i'd have to tell you to your face; I think?] what if it wasnt rejection at all??? What if it was the complete opposite??? Where would we go from there??? Would we dive straight into the deep end of the pool that we've been pacing for months? Or would we retreat back to shallow water because thats where we feel safest? [our comfort zone]... what would you want to do? i think i know... but you confuse the hell outta me sometimes with this mixed signal shit... i think you do that to me on purpose... one minute you tellin me shit that's like music to my ears the next im hearing shit about HER or should i say THEM [which to me is more like a wounded animal sharing their pain with my ear drums]... wierd thing is i wanna know.... so much more i can write here but ill save the rest for later ....